Haunted

A normal day can turn to the darkest night
Your presence seems to take away my breath, the light
I am trapped in a world that seems to have no end
You have taken everything, I can’t even trust my closest friend

I awake and attempt to organize my mind
I whisper to myself that it was a dream and I’m fine
Look around and touch things to know what is real
Take a long breath and wonder why I dream of you still

There is no denying that I am haunted by you
The memories and stories of what you will do
You’re cold, dark and most people don’t believe
A person like you exists, you deceive

Memories flood thru me at the mention of your name
Sadly, they are tainted and I can’t ever see you the same
I am so sad for who you chosen to become
I had to save myself, my future and leave, actually run

You still target me with your anger and even lie
Others tell me I’m horrible but can’t articulate why
Can’t you just let go and leave me alone
I promise that I will never come back home

There is no denying that I am haunted by you
The memories and stories of what you will do
You’re cold, dark and most people don’t believe
A person like you exists, you deceive

I am so tired and want you to stay out of my head
There are days it is so bad I dream of being dead
I’m broken and don’t know who to trust or what to feel
I feel like a doll, a play thing; anything but real

What have I done to deserve being treated so wrong
Is it God’s cruel way of seeing if I’m really strong
I’m moving away and leaving all of this far behind
I just wish that your ghost will someday vacate my mind

There is no denying that I am haunted by you
The memories and stories of what you will do
You’re cold, dark and most people don’t believe
A person like you exists, you deceive

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notfeeling40

I'm turning 40 in April 2017... So much seems to have happened and changed. I guess I am feeling I should have it figured out by 40, but does anyone every really have it all figured out?

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